Life

Some of the happiest times of my life were while we were living in Arizona. We lived close to family, Aunt Debbi and Uncle Kevin. We had a home that was the perfect size for our family and I really loved it. Casey had a great job that was always exciting. We had three beautiful children and everything we needed and so much more. It was a charmed time in my life.
We knew that the military was in control of where we lived and where we would go. We had been stationed there for 3 1/2 years and we thought we would only be there for 2 years. We began to feel so scared of where they would send us. They could send us over seas, which would have been so fun. They could have sent Casey to Korea, not so fun. We felt very vulnerable. Casey began looking at placed where the military needed people and then found a military job in Utah that looked like a to of fun so he applied. Crazy.... much to his surprise he got it. We moved at the beginning of October, one month before Minnie turned one.
The job really was all that! Casey was a computer programmer for the military. He created simulations to help train Air-men. This was an amazing opportunity for us. Casey had been going to school while working on the flight line and had wanted to become a gaming programmer. Now he could finish school while getting experience in the field! How did we get to be so lucky? Heavenly Father was truly looking out for us. I am so amazed that he would do this for us when he has so many people all over the world who need so much.
Once moved and settled in to a house we decided to wait for a while before having another baby. I really enjoyed just being a mom and taking care of my three little sweet hearts. But when Minnie was two I began to get really baby hungry.
We began trying to have a baby and it didn't take long and we were prego! But it was short lived and we lost that baby. We cried and longed for our baby and it was not long and we were ready to try again. I get pregnant so easy, it was only two months and we were pregnant again. This time things were going better.
I was really excited but very apprehensive. I was not getting sick. When I don't get sick I always loose the baby. People kept telling me not to worry maybe I was just getting a nice pregnancy! I tried to relax but I knew in the back of my mind that this would be short lived. Then it happened. Casey was leaving and would be gone on a military assignment for two weeks. The morning he was leaving I began loosing the baby. We cried and prayed together. I knew that Heavenly Father would be there for me and all would be well.
I had so much to do that day so I just kept busy and trusted that Heavenly Father would help me with everything else. I was loosing a lot of blood and I knew that the second day of a miscarriage is usually so much worse for me so at the end of the day I called a friend and asked her if she could watch my kids the next day just in case I had to go in to the hospital. Of course she said she would. She called the Bishop and he called me to see if I needed a blessing or if they could do anything for me. I told him I was fine and not to worry.
That night after the kids were in bed and I was getting ready to go to sleep.....kinda weird but I had the baby. I held this tiny person in my had. I was about 9 or 10 weeks into the pregnancy and I was so surprised what Heavenly Father could do with my body in such a short time. This baby was about 2 inches long. The front of the baby was all mess up but the back was amazing. There was a thin layer of transparent skin. I could see every single vertebra going down its back. I could see the beginnings of a spinal cord. They say that the babys spin extends beyond the body like a tail and it does. It was one of the most incredible experiences of my life. I feel that because I had endured my trials well I was blessed. "After the trial of you faith you will be blessed" -some where in the scriptures.
It took more time to recover from this. Casey did not want to have another child. We both prayed and asked Heavenly Father if he was trying to tell us something. After some fasting and prayer we both felt that we should have "just one more."